Okay so im pretty sure im an idiot, i wanted to do a video confessional but i think i'm too stupid to figure it out. shocking, i know.
i'll try and make this short and sweet since i was flying all day yesterday (ps Pennsylvania sucks i wanna go back to Cali) and so much shit has gone down.
Basiclally Jacob is rallying for my head. I know, shocking. He has his followers, Sassy and John. Both of which don't like me either lmfao. So ofc they are down for it. He has Bryan i believe as well, i wasn't sure whether or not he did or not. But Joe told me that Bryan told Sassy about the whiskey alliance (of me bryan tj tq) and that Sassy told Jacob and Jacob told Joe trying to get Joe to mistrust me. So at that point i know i dont have Bryan on my side, yay me. I need the blue guys, which i have im 99% sure. I think i've made a good relationship with all 3 individually and from what i've heard they all like and want to keep me.
I need Kurtis, which im very iffy on, but more on why i think he is solid later.
I need TJ, who i was also iffy on just because i know he is close to Bryan. However me and TJ made a finals deal, and i don't think he is the type of person to go back on his word unless he absolutely has to. And right now, he doesnt haha. So im fairly certain he is with me.
Now, here is the plan... or multiple plans to get to the real plan LOL. So we have 6, allegedly. And Jacob has 4, yet he thinks he has at the least Joe and Kurtis, at the most those two plus Rich and Billy.
Jacob's plan was to split on me and TJ, however i think he got afraid that he didnt have Rich and Billy's votes so from what Joe and Kurtis both told me individually, Jacob has decided to have him and his buddies all vote me.
now, our plan(s) are a bit more complicated and there are much more. At first Joe wanted to just switch the target from me, to TJ. But i was not having that. At all. In which im pretty sure Joe got pissed at me for that because getting TJ out would be 'easier' but fuck that. Yeah it would be easier for Joe, not for me lol. So i spoke to Billy individually and made sure he knew getting TJ out would be a bad idea for the future. So then there was a plan for Jacob n co. to vote for TJ, while Joe would be telling me i needed to bid on the idol, however we would actually have TJ bid on it. Then that got scrapped, im not really sure why haha.
But there was a big plan then, for all of us to vote John. While they vote me or TJ didn't matter much, but make sure that they thought the target was Sassy or Jacob. Hoping that Sassy would pool pesos together and have her bid on the idol, while we all just vote John. Now that IS the basic plan as of now, but im scared as all hell. I mean TJ could tell Bryan the plan and then John bids on the idol. Kurtis could be lying and leak our plan and John bids on the idol or they all just vote me. I mean i am freaking out a bit for sure.
i now know that all of them are voting me like 100% haha. Last night Joe apparently has convinced Jacob n co. that he will be bidding on the idol, since i did do my best to hint i would be using my pesos in my TC answer. Joe says they all believe him, which i really hope so. Bc then nobody would be bidding on the idol (Joe is telling them he is bidding like 250, but really he is bidding nothing) and John should go if that all happens. however i dont want Joe to take ALL the heat, and not to mention id feel much much safer if i did actually have the idol. Not that i want to waste pesos, but this is the first time of testing everyones loyalty, and id rather be safer than not. So, i think im going to bid, idk how much, but a medium amount, hoping that literally nobody is bidding on the idol haha. As long as they trust Joe, nobody should be bidding but me, but if they DONT trust joe... then they could be bidding themselves which would be BAD.
Then again, they would also need to know we are voting John, which im not sure they do know that. Zavi spoke to me today saying he knew it was John
and i literally had a panic attack LOL. But Zavi was also saying that he think he could use me later in the game (lol.. i dont think he realizes how blunt he is, and im pretty sure those were Kurtis's words TO Zavi, zavi agrees since im assuming down the line, Kurtis is going to try and over throw the 3 blue guys) so im pretty sure Kurtis is for sure with us. I dont see why Zavi would try to talk to me, and try to gain my trust.. if he knew i was going home anyway. i mean i guess for jury votes, but that doesnt make much sense.
But yeah so i think im going to bid on the idol and hopefully win even if its a little amount, this can also help because if they think i bid OVER 250.. then they probably think i have little to 0 pesos left, while that wouldnt be true at all.
NOT TO MENTION it seems like everybody and their mother wants me to use my skylar vote switch, and its really fucking annoying. Everyone is making me believe that the 6 of us are strong and solid... yet i NEED to use my switch vote, like dafuq? i guess these bitches don't trust me with it... but whatever. i dont think i will use it, as long as i get the idol there's no need for the switch. Plus if i use the switch on John and he gets the idol, its pretty pointless anyway.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO i think thats it so far, crossing my fingers everything works or i'll be going home
haha. Again im not sure if people are protectng me bc they trust me, bc they think im weak, or they are afraid of the other side... but hey whichever works to keep me in the game, im fine with it.
GL ME
he also said he wants one of the new la arana to go first. so yay!
and i literally had a panic attack LOL. But Zavi was also saying that he think he could use me later in the game (lol.. i dont think he realizes how blunt he is, and im pretty sure those were Kurtis's words TO Zavi, zavi agrees since im assuming down the line, Kurtis is going to try and over throw the 3 blue guys) so im pretty sure Kurtis is for sure with us. I dont see why Zavi would try to talk to me, and try to gain my trust.. if he knew i was going home anyway. i mean i guess for jury votes, but that doesnt make much sense.
